raise your hand if you enjoy endless pits of vignettes and monologues!
"I think one day you'll know. One day you'll just know. And if you don't, it's okay because I'll know. I want you to know I think of you in the most beautiful ways. It's brilliant, and wonderful like looking at the sun. It hurts like hell, but what a thing to behold. I think of us doing things together. Simply. In such fine detail that it's almost blunt. But not the same things we used to. Not the memories. Maybe one day I can think of those too, and be okay. But today, I can think of us. I can think of us together sharing all of these moments and time in my mind that I've made for us. Where you're the you that I love, and I'm the me that you loved. I know they're not real.. they are not memories, and they're never going to be real. But it keeps you here with me and I won't give them up. It lets us love each other that way we did, always. I wonder if you know that I still keep you here with me, like a part of my soul. I think one day you'll know. But if you don't, it's okay. Because I'm going to love you forever, and that will be enough."
"in such fine detail that it's almost blunt" doesn't really seem to make sense.. but the more I think about it, the more it does. I guess I could describe it like sand. So imagine grains of sand scattered across a table in a painting. That seems like a lot of detail in the picture right? Right. And then imagine that in another painting there is a sizable (that word is totally spelled wrong) sand-coloured cube on the table. But it's not really a sand coloured cube. If you look closer, it's a cube made out of sand that the painter has painted. So to me, that's even moreee detailed than the grains of sand painted scattered across the table. But it's so very detailed that it just looks blunt and obvious. And in reality, it's actually just more detailed. Does that even make sense? Maybe I should have used pixels on tv for example.. (9283472938742's of tiny tediously coloured and placed pixels to make up a picture of something like a rock). Anyway, I'm sure you get the picture (no pun intended... seriously. I actually hate puns.)